Finally!

I am very excited. I am FINALLY getting off my bum and doing something about the remnants of the baby belly that I have. I lost a lot of the weight fairly soon after having Declan, but ten months later, I'm ready to finally get rid of the mass of jelly around my belly and hips. So I gave in and got a Wii so I can have a Wii Fit. The boys are in a transitional time of napping where between the two of them, they nap all day it seems. Of course, usually one is up at a time, so I don't get much of a break... but at least they're fun... most of the time. So due to the napping and the fact that it is single digits (and though I like going outside... I'm not a glutton for punishment) here, it is pretty hard for me to get active. I've thought about gyms and such, but since I am always taking care of Declan, there is no way I could ever get there.

This all led me to the Wii Fit. I can work out, at home, when Declan is asleep.
I started today, and did 27 game time minutes of working out.
My Wii Fit age is 37... yuck.
My weight is 156.7 (not too much more than my pre-baby weight, but my figure is for sure not the same)
My BMI is just over 22.

So my goal for now is to lose 3 lbs in 2 weeks and get my BMI down to 20.
Wish me luck!


(Also I just want you to know that I finished up by eating the rest of my Chinese leftover. Logan was amused. What can I say? I can't change instantly!)

Honesty

I've always had the desire to have a blog that was witty and honest and actually, maybe a bit insightful but usually I end up scribbling something down so that I don't go months between writing something. (Not that there are that many posts on here anyway) Since I really don't think many (if any!) people read this... maybe I'll take a stab at actually trying to get some of my real thoughts out there.

I am in a strange place right now. Things are... GOOD. Logan and I both have jobs, and are getting by financially, we have a beautiful and happy baby, a roof over our heads and food in our belly. Sure we have crazy landlords, the worst internet and no cable, and our food ends up being pasta a lot... but everything is there. I am so lucky to have things be... good. However, the downside is that I don't think I know what to do with things being so good. I feel as though much of my time is spent solving problems, and without that I don't know what to do with myself.

I feel discontent and that is something that I have to work on. I know that sometimes I take it out on Logan. I take the most trivial things and blow them up and it's not fair to him. This is something that I have to work on inside of myself and I need to remember to let things go and to not create problems just to have problems.

We have been thinking a lot about moving to Texas. I wanted to move before Logan and I got together, and now would be a perfect time before due to the fact that our careers will be a bit stalled come September. I'll need to be finding a new job, and why not do it somewhere warmer, where Declan can get to experience Logan's side of the family? The only thing keeping me here is my family. I love them, and they mean everything to me... but I guess I have to figure out what I would give up in order to live my life the way that I want to.

What would it take to be truly happy? Once I figure it out I'll let you know.

And we're booked...

For our flight to Texas! We are finally (after almost two years) going to be able to make it out there. I will finally meet Logan's dad for the first time (along with Declan) and we will get to introduce our son to his great-grandfather. I'm pretty stoked about it.

Also... I am constantly amazed by the cuteness of Declan. The boys ended up taking naps at our apt today (long story) and though Leo nicely stayed asleep when he came in, Declan (though was dead to the world in the car) decided to wake up and be super-chatty and rolling around. You would think that I could have the boys take a nap at our house and (gasp!) perhaps take a nap myself. Nope. Foiled by a loud crawly baby... who I just couldn't seem to get mad at, even through the exhaustion of SEEING my own bed and not being able to do anything with it.

Declan. You took away my nap. And you still made me smile anyway. That. Is. Love.

In a Slightly Better Place

Oh my. Although things can get/ have been a little rough recently, I just try to keep reminding myself of just how lucky I am. I currently am married to a man who I love with all my heart (and he love me back... just as much), have a roof over our heads, a car to get us around, food for us, we both have jobs, and I am looking down at this beautiful boy that holds more of my heart than I knew I had.

Declan is getting so much more personality daily. I'm pretty sure that if he keeps half the looks and charm that he has now... he will be able to get far. Like I said before he has the army-man crawl down, has three (possibly four) teeth coming in, he is starting to lift himself up, and can push pretty much anything around. He explores EVERYTHING... which also includes pulling down anything and everything he possibly can. He is definitely a handful, but the best kind.

Logan is working for Barnes and Noble Cafe. After working there for about four days, he got promoted and transferred. He just started that last week, which means that he is finally full-time, which will hopefully lift some of our financial struggles off our backs. I am watching the three kids, and it is amazing to see how much they have grown in the last six months. Leo has started walking. It is great to have him as an influence for Declan to see where his next step is.

We have been thinking a lot about moving to Texas in September. We are getting to the point where we really want to be able to buy a house (someday... probably not soon) and since Logan's family is all down there, we feel as though we should experience living down there before deciding where to be more long-term. Hopefully we can get everything together to go and visit Austin in April when I have a break, which will solidify our decision one way or another.

Anyway, that's about all I have for now... back to playing with my gorgeous, happy little man!

TERRIBLE

I know... I'm absolutely TERRIBLE at keeping these things up. OCTOBER is the last time I posted. That's THREE MONTHS ago!! That is literally a third of Declan's life. SO much has happened. (Okay, enough with the caps) Declan can now sit up by himself and crawl. He does it army-man style... on his belly... it's pretty great. He is the happiest baby I have ever seen. However, he is teething and three teeth have already broken through. The fourth is coming momentarily.

The thing about being a new mom is... never having a second to think. Ever. I feel as though I am constantly torn in ten million places... including now. I would love to sit and make this blog funny and witty and meaningful but i also want to watch tv and not think, shower, fold Declan's laundry, wash the dishes. Ugh. I'll come back to this... I'm just not in the right place right now.